Fort's Cancer Sux!!

Ok, I came on here to post some lame message about how I was too lazy to blog and when I get home all I want to do is lay on the couch blah blah blah. Throw in the fact that John went to the grocery store and picked up this Apple spice beer which im sure is LOADED with calories, but now has me buzzing around and wanting to sleep...but then I went on my site meter and saw I had 85 visits today and nothing new posted. So here are some random musings....

• First of all, GREAT NEWS! I got this email today from my Dr.'s office:
• Melissa,
  Boy do I have GREAT news for you. Your insurance has paid just about everything we have been fighting with them about. They have even paid the Lupron, the Neulasta, etc. I could just about do backflips I am so happy for you. Linda and I are afraid to breathe too loud fearing insurance will decide they made a mistage and take it all back. But it looks good so far. CONGRATULATIONS AND MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
• How awesome is that?
• All I wanted to do this weekend was get out all the Christmas decorations and give the house a good thorough cleaning. John had other ideas. About 200 pounds of wood shelving was removed from our garage with a circular saw to make room for new new bar/cooler we purchased off the deck of Hap's. This displaced a bunch of camping stuff we dont even use, so now, in addition to a mess of Christmas decorations in the basement, camping stuff has moved in.
• The ping pong table is still up in the garage covered with STUFF. It desperately needs to be put away so I can fit my car in there. But again, Im lazy.
• Cold weather makes me tired.
• I saw a vanity plate today that said "GOT KIDS".....what do you think that means?
• I have a follow up appt with Romer on Friday afternoon, then its off to KJ's party, and then Saturday is Thanksmas with all the old OU Rugby alumni.
• Im starting to understand what people say about tinnutus and how It can make you insane. The ringing in my ears continutes to get louder, changes tones, gets louder when I get stressed, and is just all around pissing me off. But there is nothing I can do about it and it will either stay or get worse. This I have been all but assured. It is so loud sometimes I have a difficult time hearing the tv. I dont know how to describe it. It is just like an insanely high pitched fuzzy "buzz". Sometimes I forget about it, but going to bed is the worst. John likes things quiet and still when he goes to sleep and I am anything but. I "spin" nonstop for hours before I can actually fall asleep. On my right side, on my back, on my left side, then on my stomach.....over and over and over and over again. Ive been letting myself just crap out on the couch instead of lying in bed with the tv on so I can get tired enough fall asleep and forget about the ringing.
• The best part of my day has become sleeping. Ive been having the craziest, most colorful dreams. They are beyond description, but every morning, I wake up with a smile because it always something fun....90% of my dreams involve Ohio U - Athens, college friends, classes....all of it. Maybe I should have been one of those lifetime students! The best part of sleeping though is that I dont have the ringing in my ears in my "other", nocturnal life. Of all the dreams I can remember, the constant, ever present ringing is never involved.
• I hate hate hate my hair. I want to grow it out but it is in that too short to be long, too long to be short phase. I dont want to get it cut, but it just looks so messy. Im just going to have to suck it up until its long enough to pull back in a ponytail. I dont care if my mom says it makes me look twelve.
• Is anyone watching Desperate Housewives? What the hell was up with that last episode? Is that some effect of the writers strike? I thought they filmed those things MONTHS AND MONTHS in advance. That was such an obvious, lazy way to wrap up storylines - Are you telling me that the people involved in these shows couldnt have written something on the fly a little better than THAT?

Why am I obsessed with The Real Housewives of Orange County? What is it with that show? Why havent I had any good postings lately? I dont know. Just feeling uninspired i guess...

Happy Hump Day!